Runaway

[Verse 1]
So many nights I've prayed, so many times I've tried. So many problems, lord. Sometimes I wish I died. I told my mama I loved her holding my 45. I cocked it back but all I seen was mamas eyes. I know i'm traumatized ever since I lost my daddy, I've been buying everything around me, tryna make me happy. Nobody understands the shit I do, but if you feel like me you would disapprove too. Ready for war, knocking on heavens door like please take me I can't take it no more. I'm a loner, hard head, sinner and a soldier. Mouth full of smoke when I'm praying to Jehovah. I need help, whats the purpose of a sinner, the man in the mirror's not the man that I remember. My hearts turn to stone, the pains turning on, don't judge me just leave me alone

[Hook]
I just wanna run away, (Run Away X3) Run far away from here. I'm a run away. Kiss my best bye, lord knows i've tried, but I can't deal with this shit. X2

[Verse 2]
As a misfit, prayers of a misfit. tears in my closet and names on my hit list. Mama used to kiss this, before here and before bed. Now my 44's by my bed fulla cold lead. I'm on my meds, and my stress left me super high. I'm on meds, just a pill away from suicide. If I was dead, then the pain wouldn't hurt. But my enemy's would stay and rub my name in the dirt. What kind of life am I living? To be feeling like this. My backs on the ropes and names on my fist. And I wish I could refresh life, finish my degree and marry the best wife. But I can't so i'm playing with the cards that i'm dealt. So sad when your pills are more important than your health. So i'm writing and recording putting product on the shelf. Fuck the world I can do this myself

[Hook]
I just wanna run away, (Run Away X3) Run far away from here. I'm a run away. Kiss my best bye, lord knows i've tried, but I can't deal with this shit. X2

[Verse 3]
Came up from poverty and living in the projects, to riding 28 with money falling out my pocket. I'm the product of 2 immigrants who can't afford Identisis, sharing my experiences. I'm jotting down these sentences, people often criticize what they don't understand, instead of throwing rocks at the surface of a man. But deep down, shines a whole new perspective the tears of a child who just tryna be accepted. I'm on a dark road, nobody knows. This shit's fucked up, I can never let it show. I wanna let it go, but my crowd won't let me. But pain equals anger so please don't upset me. Just leave me the fuck alone, and let me drown in my sorrow. I'm on a count down and I ain't worry 'bout tomorrow. I'm still dealing with today, ain't got time to lay my head down, cuz I got so many fucking bills to pay. I can't afford to-

[Hook]
I just wanna run away, (Run Away X3) Run far away from here. I'm a run away. Kiss my best bye, lord knows i've tried, but I can't deal with this shit. X2