Ruby Wand

Diagnosed with O.C.D. today
Somebody take my metal away
I just dive in to my skin
Looking for proof I'm okay

It's the first time someone I slept with passed
Half a decade since we spoke last
I can't stop searching for his name
As if I wouldn't do things the same

Magic hour burning by my side
I make the bed
It's somewhere to lie
Holding a ruby in my hand
One thing in my command

I need control
Just afloat, but treading all along