Rose bush

[Verse]
I love your company but sometimes it's just hard to talk
Can't get outta bed, how the fuck I'll get a job?
Worthless and trash, that is all ill ever be
Been workin' tho, how come you’re not proud of me?
I look round the room, and everyone is doubting me
I'm sick of getting stares, hate it when they laugh at me
It's my fuckin' fault, that everyone makes jokes of me
Head to to floor, everyone just leave me be
I didn't ask for this so why the fuck you blaming me

I feel I'm in a fight, every time I close my eyes
But when I open them, I get a shitty surprise
Its not just dreams but all my nightmares comes to real life
Im sick of people realizing they don't need me
Im very well aware of my disposability

Please understand, that I am trying my best
But then I think of shit and then I feel pain in my chest
Oh god forbid, that I want some fuckin' rest
I'm gettin' sick of it, everybody’s got me pissed