Rolodex

[Verse 1]
The part
Of this
Comes quick
And painless

[Verse 2]
Leaving it up
Tossing a die
Picking a stone
To hold on to

[Verse 3]
What I could change?
What I became
Would this have made
You want to

[Chorus 1]
Try to stay together for the kids
It's easier to forget about yourself
And what's good about you
It's cool and sunny outside
So why the fuck am I
Near asleep again this afternoon

[Verse 4]
Best plans
Laid out
Rough sketch
No painting

[Verse 5]
Adrift
Apart
Bereft
It's telling

[Verse 6]
Daughter or son
Flat or a house
Credit or debt
We'll make it

[Verse 7]
What could we change?
What all becomes
Would this have made
A difference

[Outro/Chorus 2]
Try to stay together for the kids
Remember what I loved about you
When we met before the mortgage
Piano lessons, marriage counsellors
In our separate beds
Until I leave and take the boys to school
Sitting with the engine running
You'll never find another half to make you whole
Am I terrified of being alone?
Did you ever love me?
Will you ever forgive me?