rip myself into a million different little pieces

[Sample: Sea Oleena - ​If I’m]
You led the way to off-white walls
And wooden floors and open doors
And birds and birds and birds
And all with dusty backs
Among these...

[Verse 1]
Let me set the scene
It's 2am, this thick black veil is over everything
There's nothing here except the wind and faint sounds of the creek
This light glows when I spark it
I spend life fighting this darkness
I might come back a little scratched, but life is never easy
I found this me then watched myself split into separate things
Scattered all around the fields to go collect again
I'm almost all together now except some little cracks
Ain't shit change, I'm still out back
Ashing joints on back door steps
Got some love, but will it last?
I can only really guess
My landlord is garbage
Fuck this house, you can ash on the carpet
My brain skips and short-circuits
This life is one big circus

By the highway we watch shadows pass
And the light bends 'round your silhouette
I'mma smoke till I can't breathe any air
Sometimes I don't wanna be anywhere
But I won't leave, just please do not turn off the show
This is my favorite episode
Let's just close these curtains slow

[Bridge]
I just get so scared that you'll go
I can't help it's how I cope
I got habits I can't fix
I just can't help but self-destroy
I had friends I could have helped
So I let new ones in my life
Take advantage of me now
And it all looks so clear now
Seeing it from this vantage point

[Verse 2]
I'll be out soon
I'm in deep, but I'm making big strides
I took more than 2
Like what's gonna happen this time?
By the highway we watch shadows pass
And the light bends 'round your silhouette
I'mma smoke till I can't breathe any air
Sometimes I don't wanna be anywhere
But I won't leave, just please do not turn off the show
This is my favorite episode
Let's just close all these curtains slow
Stuck in a never-ending game
I'm lost in the bits and code
Someone's in my computer screen
And she calls to me, I know