Rigors

Rigors and agony scaring me to death
Phases of mourning than hope
But every now and then i tend to lose my breath
Im sure that it won't matter when it climbs from behind the rope
Around my heart
Around my throat
Around my neck
Around everything i know

How am i supposed to be what i want to be
When what i want doesnt want me
How am i supposed to feel
What i want to feel
When what i want doesnt want me

Help me
Someone please
Save me
Make me
Whole again
Save mе

All it takes is a message or call to brеak me down
And say fuck it all
I see your name i see your face
And it puts me back in that place
I feel like i should be dead
Like i should be dead

Ill admit my failures
Ill confront my wrongs
Ill do anything to have you say
I won't be gone for long