Right the Wrongs

[Intro: Apani]
I wonder why, I need to know
I wonder why, I need to know
I wonder why

[Chorus: Apani]
To realize my dreams and right the wrongs
I see, things ain’t what they seem
I wonder why through schemes ‘cause
I need to know

[Verse 1: Apani]
I wonder
Why some niggas wanna run before they can crawl
When the writing is scrawled all over the wall
Can’t front. I used to, didn’t see it before
Or maybe I didn’t think I was who the message was for
Now I examine issues to the core—kind of like
I do metaphors (Word), think about friends
I don’t see no more like my ex-best friend Nica
When we met in gym class, she rocked Diadora sneakers
We go back like that. Even
Before rap, met little duns together
Riding bikes in hot weather on the ave, catching twin ass-cracks
The usual mishaps, shared too many laughs that
Ended. Now our paths don’t cross, fences
Need to be mended. I wonder if, today, she
Feels the loss like I often do. Memories?
Made more than a few. Still go a lot
Of places that I’ve been with you. You moved away—heard you
Stay in Atlanta. I have to check you when
I do a show just to say, “Yo, been on
My mind lately, and I thought you should know”

[Chorus: Apani] (x2)
To realize my dreams and right the wrongs
I see, things ain’t what they seem
I wonder why through schemes ‘cause
I need to know

[Verse 2: Apani]
Since
Last contact, a lot has happened. You been knew I
Was rapping, done a little traveling, performing and
Recording my craft, I’m breaking through at last. You know
The math, how I paid dues with the Dead Men crew (DMO)
Carlos, Ant, me, Vic, and HaS took mad
Flicks on 76th Ave in Flushing, Queens
Cutting hair at Marie’s. Now he’s overseas
In the military. Still, this music shit is
Most primary. Just seen Anthony on the train
He doing his thang. We cool, but his priorities changed
The rest are the same. Ain’t seen old
What’s-His-Name in eons. Yo, how’s your moms?
Yo, mines is fine. My godmother Nancy died (Rest in peace)
Two years ago in April. Damn, time flies, plus
Matthew committed suicide (Rest in peace). I can’t even cry
But it still blows my mind. He left a lot
Of friends behind when he was alive. He asked about you
From time to time—“Yo, how’s Nica?” I replied
“Ain’t seen her or heard from her.” He thought it was
A shame, but I guess that’s just the way it go
Friends grow apart. Why? I don’t know
People grow apart. Why? I don’t know
Friends grow apart. Why? I don’t know
Damn, I wish I knew

[Chorus: Apani] (x2)
To realize my dreams and right the wrongs
I see, things ain’t what they seem
I wonder why through schemes ‘cause
I need to know

[Verse 3: Apani]
Through life
We feel joy and pain, stick and move to gain
Solid footing in these insane times
It’s a battle just maintaining a vibe. Motherfuckers leaving me
Mentally fried, but I can’t be denied. Look at me
I’m moving mountains with rhymes. Must be the grand design
I met the love of my life. He wasn’t Mr. Right
But I’m still living, still building
Want a career and children, be set with millions and never
Let it go to my head. Someone wise once said
We only value what’s out of reach or dead
Haven’t been close to Megalon. I hope
Nothing is wrong. You’ve been healthy and strong
I wrote this song when remembering when, hoping
Maybe we can breathe again if we ever meet again
‘Cause, right now, I could really use a friend from back then

[Chorus: Apani] (x4)
To realize my dreams and right the wrongs
I see, things ain’t what they seem
I wonder why through schemes ‘cause
I need to know

[Outro: Apani]
Tell me, I need to know
I wonder why, I need to know
Tell me
I wonder why
Tell me
I need to know
I wonder why