Reverie

[Verse 1]
I've dedicated half my life to demonstrate half my potential
Went through hell and made it back yeah, bargained with the devil
Needed saving when my demons held me stationed in my mental
Lately I've been feeling doubts, this isn't what I'm meant for
Guess she got me at the center, bad, wish I could do better yeah
What happened to "You and me together here forever, Zach"
Often lost in reverie of memories we've never had
And though I lack completion, I don't need to find a better half
Forgot, I had logged in and on your message app
You see that eavesdropping's an option, so you check the chats
This ain't a play or act though, I feel I'm Peter Pan
I just need a Wendy who can send me off to Neverland
And no, we don't need to ever land, beneath of me you'll see reticent
You came in and gave me life and you saved me like I'm a revenant, but
Just irrelevant's something I'll always be
In my music, as a human in your view and in your dreams
Fucking useless as a being, moods that you have never seen
Truth is you were half the reason I could ever seem to sleep
I'm always seeking peace, but can't with demons leaking deep beneath
And lately I've been tryna stick to doing me, fucking preach
Told her I would never take her for granted
False hope, but I meant it, damn it, I hold on acreting damage
Told me that I never put in the bandwidth
I know that nobody else understands it
Yeah lately been turning cold
Like I had nothing to give while she had gave me the globe
When I was stuck in a rut, you'd always throw down the rope
But after I've been discarded, I started feeling alone
You showed the meaning of hope, opened me 'til expose
And never had second thoughts, you're better off on your own

[Verse 2]
I've dedicated half my life to demonstrate half my potential
Went through heaven, now I'm back, yeah been starting to settled
Don't need saving 'cause my demons left, escaping from my mental
Lately I've been getting out, I'll show you what I'm meant for
Yes, she got me at the center, bad, I cannot do better yeah
What happened to "Not taking for granted what you're handed, Zach?"
Often lost in reverie of memories we'll never have
And only felt completed for one reason though my better half
It's like we're losing a future that we'll both never have
Yeah, that's why I'm writing you this letter back