Retrograde

Yeah
I swear this music is so therapeutic
But at one point I refused to use it
Now I refuse to lose it
So....
Here I go
Father forgive me if I abuse it

Yeah
Lately I been having visions of grandeur
Losing sight of the plan, the mission was raise the standard
Captivated by thoughts of what if
In love with a talent, somehow got lost in my gift
Don't worry I'm good
I Been praying and fasting
Realigning my focus
DT-Pain I had Epiphanies soon as wrote this
I learned to be cautious when a stranger approaches
Sometimes your friends are the enemies you keeping the closest
They said I wouldn't make it
I said LOL
They was watching me struggle now watching me prevail
What a year what a year
Such a pleasant surprise
Toast to the future
What time to be alive
Yeah
Started getting more traffic in my DM
I know they all expecting answers as soon as I see em'
Messages about how my music influence em'
All in my comment section look how the spirit is using him
Wow
I been Staring in the mirror til the visions clearer
I can see you talking to me but I barely hear ya
Over this sea of cries I'm drowning in my own thoughts
Love is the key but seems I'm locked out of my own vault
Man
Conversations with Satan
Pouring into everyone else has been draining my patience
Why I'm so often in isolation?
Please don't be offended
In order to be the me that you need requires distance
I'm sorry
I just hope and pray you understand it
For far too long I been taking my mental health for granted
I done seen too many legends come and go so your projected expectations won't be the reason I leave this planet

For real
Hold on
Yeah

Writing sessions in the back lyfts
Double entandras while on my way to a double shift
I had a convo wit Sanon, hit me the other day
He asked me how I stay focused when life's in disarray
Told him, I ain't got the answers
Word to Ye and Sway
I just Transition like a transfer
Really all I know is God got me
My faith stronger than Sake
And I serve these words like Nikki Giovanni
Flow like Dasani mixed in Gandhi
That's a mellow drip
I turn into Tony Stark when we fellowship
Iron sharpens iron Man
I'm learning where my desires stand
That's Tru religion like designer pants
Thanks to regrets I'm watching my steps, look like I'm trying to dance
Me giving up is kinda like a label signing chance, Never!
For real, I hope that line was clever
And I hope that you appreciate this open letter
Yuh

So
As I, set aside my fears
And I reflect on this year
Best believe the visions clear
Here's to 2020