Retroactive Jealousy

[Intro]

[Chorus]
And I have waited
All my life
For this moment

But you gave it away at all of fifteen, and I
Know it doesn't change a thing, but it must have some meaning

[Verse 1]
So I think to myself, "words hurt too much,"
But we have conversations of the deepest touch
About rooftops to trampolines
The party scene doesn’t really work for me
So I use the bits and pieces to form memories
Fantasies that don't belong to me
Of things I wish were on the table
But I wasn't able

[Chorus]
And I have waited
All my life
For this moment

But you gave it away at all of fifteen and I
Know it doesn’t change a thing, but it must have some meaning
Following the footsteps of someone else
Checking all the boxes that they have felt
In due time, it must've had meaning
Sober as a Saturday night
With the lights shining bright on you

[Verse 2]
So you started from the bottom, made it to the top
Your sophomore dreams delayed by the thoughts of
Breathing (breathing), feeling (feeling), and
Fading in and out

I see it clear as dust like the dark before the dawn and it's
Eating me away 'cause I know that it was on a
Fleeting (fleeting) feeling (feeling) of
Deep and desperate want

[Chorus]
And I have waited
All my life
For this moment

But you gave it away at all of fifteen and I
Know it doesn't change a thing but it must have some meaning
Following the footsteps of someone else
Checking all the boxes that they have felt
In due time
It must've had meaning
Laying underneath the star-filled skies
So the darkness is no disguise
And you know this moment is right
Yeah, it must have had meaning
Building the bridges and burning
Without the discerning of who (who you are)
It must've had meaning
Sober as a Saturday night
With the lights shining down on you