Restless

I'm not okay. I can't find stability. x2
Threading through my faith with a needle named doubt
Putting it all together and then tearing it apart
Throwing away the scraps and trying to restart
Go back to the days when it was sunny and clean
My soul stormed until it stopped trying to shine
It settled for hazy messages from a black sky
I still don't know why, know why
No question I threw up, came back, and I don't know why
Is this what I wanted to be? A restless soul wrestling with what I believe
Or just a selfish soul blind to problems that tower over me, over me, that tower over me

Slow fade out. Sun burn and stay out. Clouds close like a mouth. 'Round last light and sound
Don't bother, save your breath. Could be the last you get

Am I jaded to the point where I can't see all of the beauty Your hands made, the world surrounding me
I'm scared of what has come and what is to be. My heavy heart. The Earth will cover me