Requited Hatred

[Verse 1 - Vakanz]
It’s not so easy to always hate myself
I hate my routes, I shake myself and try to integrate myself
I hate my pain and hope that it'll strengthen soon
The burning on my innards are relieving what I’m making soon

Or maybe I’m officially delusional
Hungover by the multitudes of narcs and what I think is cool
Puff and pass another one my homie, yo
Matter fact I might skip out on this one though

Please save me, I’m waiting, I’m begging you
But lying is tiring, no checking you
I shoulda known when you held your phone from me
Grow homie, get out of this nonsense and then call on me

Wait no, block me. I don’t want affiliation
I don’t want to have myself humiliated
I don’t wanna pleasure you with my company
For somebody who doesn’t even love me, but will just agree

[Interlude]
I'm begging you
No checking you
Lying is tiring, no checking you
Save me, I'm waiting, I'm begging you
Ay, okay

[Verse 2 - Ira]
I’ve been finding side my mind
Another place I’ve lost and I
Cannot find my true design
I’ve been stuck up in a fog

Amongst what I used to believe
Now in my screens, these TV scenes
I cannot see with my two eyes
What I feel, within these lies

I'm tryna find my way out but there's no way out for someone that doesn't wanna make an escape route
Okay, maybe cuz I'm just stuck this way
Maybe that I'm just static to the pain

I never change my game
I never change my frame
Living on this day-to-day
Keep on wishing stay the same

Hoping nothing, it'll change
Sectus in my mindstate
Wishing I was dead or alive to try my fine place

And I've been stuck in the same road
I'm stuck in the same boat, but I
Ya know when I'm hitting the water I only flow back

I never make it like the wheels on a coach
Oh baby don't approach me I'm losing my focus
And all of this magic is just hocus pocus

I’ve been finding side my mind
Another place I’ve lost and I
Cannot find my true design
I’ve been stuck up in a fog

Amongst what I used to believe
Now in my screens, these TV scenes
I cannot see with my two eyes
What I feel, within these lies