Remember the First Time (Star Shopping)

Yeah, a couple things I've gotta say
I wouldn't have done it any other way
And there's a bitter taste when you say my name
But I never, ever meant to cause you pain
And I know you see me killing stage
And you're probably rooting me from far away
Everything gone but the aftertaste
And it's the real me, I put the mask away
Indirect tweets after drunken nights
That I delete in the morning 'cause you know I'm right
And pardon me for scrolling through your 'Gram
'Cause I never found a girl that really understands
I'm running through girls or hit a glass ceiling
I'm drinking every night, you wouldn't know the feeling
Different girls coming every other evening
And when it became normal, it weren't so appealing
My steeze still through the roof
All-black clothes just to match the mood
And this music life is overdue
But I never cared when I was there with you
Changed up for who? I don't know no different
Close friends know I've been so distant
I can't say that I truly miss them
When they left me out, I never played the victim
Takeaways and alcohol every night
And now that we're apart, we live a better life
So maybe, then, we're good apart
But you the one who stole my heart
Everything I earned, I was asking for
I never took you out, so we argued more
I was too depressed to even leave the house
So we only chilled if you was coming round
Plenty time has passed and I've been slowly healing
My Instagram page has been so deceiving
People saying "Grim, you've made it"
Never knew I'd rather swap places
I've got a son who thinks the world of me
His mum won't let me see him and it's burning me
Mother in the sky, looking down on me
Who would make my world if she was proud of me
Blocked account so we don't speak
But we indirect over liked tweets
Surrounded by girls who never, ever like me
Who see I've got the buzz when the others hype me
Rarest of my kind, there's no one out there like me
Heard a couple brothers sounding just like me
Can't compare another man to me
Rewrite history, that's yours truly
Sickers