Relapse

I got great calves from bouncing my legs
Hydrated eyes from being upset
Pale skin from being sick
Rosy lips from a nervous tick

Waterproof makeup is my best friend
I keep her in mind as I begin to obsess
Does falling apart burn calories?
My skeleton is calling me

You tried to find beauty in my relapse
You tell me that I just need to relax
Smile and wave as you turn on the flash
As you try to photograph my mask

I got stained teeth from acidity
The air in my bathroom is hard to breathe
Covering the mirror above the sink
My skin begins to feel like ink

You tried to find beauty in my relapse
You tell me that I just need to relax
Smile and wave as you turn on the flash
As you try to photograph my mask

There is no way to romanticize this shell
There is no exit ticket to this hell