Rejection

[Verse 1]
I think I'm finally movin' mountains after all my searchin'
After all my years of doubtin', faith then broke the surface
Always felt like God was near, but I was never certain
I've been overlooked for years, it's all a part of purpose
More confident in myself, I no longer run away
But still, when I'm put on the spot, I don't know what to say
Deep inside I feel like I was chose to run the game
But in my mind I hear these lies and walk the other way
And question if I'm doin' this for God or just to please myself
I'm accidentally savin' lives, I think they need my help
My biggest lesson these days, I've learned to be myself
I don't really want no fame, and I don't need the wealth
I had to cast manipulatin' spirits out my system
I ran so many people off, and then I played the victim
Steady runnin' into demons, a daily collision
They either tryin' to take me out or tryin' to take me wit' 'em
Stress got me creatin' addiction, I'm tryin' to run from it
Growin' up was like bad luck, I never won nothing
That explains why I'm never pleased and I'm always wantin' something
Music make me feel like a winner, even my son loves it
Most of my family not involved, but you don't leave 'em out
They can never need me at all, I'm still gon' be reachin' out
I've been trapped between all these walls, but I think He freed me now
Because they never see me at all, I think they see me now

[Interlude]
They're gonna come and ask you for guidance, or
You know how to be saved, or this thing, even begin that process
Or they're gonna want to know more about God
Because they're gonna start seeing your blessings and your promises of God that is being fulfilled in your life
So they're gonna want to know more
And it's gonna be a change in relationship or a change in communication as far as with your family
Yeah

[Verse 2]
I done had so many fake friends that it made me cutthroat
Every woman I was with was a soul tie, and they don't know
Always need someone around me, uncomfortable bein' solo
So many fake smiles, I'm pretendin' in all my photos
How I got a Dad and I still don't know who my dad is
Searchin' for acceptance, I ended up with some bad friends
I know that I'm forgiven, but still guilty over past sins
Which leads me to a place of anxiety, that just happens
I could tell I'm bipolar, don't think a doctor could save me
Supressin' this depression, I easily get so angry
Why am I this way, I got people thinkin' I'm crazy
I get hot-headed, my temper just like a baby
I know I got some exes who think that I'm never changin'
I know every day that my lady prayin' for patience
Sometimes I feel that she might just leave me and she can't take it
That's the same result of mistakes that I'm always makin'
Unsatisfied with how I'm livin', need to make corrections
Why am I this way, I keep needin' love and affection
Every day I pray but still end up in a depression
I heard Jesus is the way, I hope it's to an exit
So many years I've been working to be accepted
As a result it just made me feel more neglected
I don't get what I'm expectin', it makes me feel more rejected
But it leads me to be selfless, rejection is just a lesson