Reflections

<<< VERSE 1 >>>
Look I don't really know if you know me
Know that I probably shouldn't say this
Know this will bite me in the ass but
Right now I don't really give a shit

Honestly I only like a few of you
And the few that I do I don't miss
There's a reason I can’t get close to you
Last time I did my life went to shit

I tried to forget man
I tried many things
At first everything seemed better but
I only felt better after I got my next hit of weed

After that had my first sip of shine
I beamed like the sun and I felt so free
Finally found a friend I could count on
Never could have guessed that my friend would hurt me

<<< CHORUS >>>
I wish that I could see
Past this shot of whiskey
Everybody could see
I wasn't me except me

<<< VERSE 2 >>>
Back to the basics back in the basement
Back to the rapping back to the drinking
Shawties and 40s and money I'm making
Sike I'm a broke boy can't bring home the bacon

I need job and a 10 in some leggings
I need a life and a lifetime of blazing
I need something to bring my life some meaning
Right now it feels like I'm numbing my genius

My life's a puzzle I'm searching for pieces
Drinking and smoking and drugs are my weakness
I need some help they say go follow Jesus
Laughing my ass off I'd rather ask Yesus

I'm so damn lost don't know what to believe in
Feels like there's so much I could be achieving
Instead I'm drunk on my bed and I'm chiefing
Wondering when the fuck I will start living

<<< CHORUS >>>
I wish that I could see
Past this shot of whiskey
Everybody could see
I wasn't me except me

<<< VERSE 3 >>>
Man I feel like a loser
Man I feel like a loner
I feel like I need me some booze sir
Please give me enough for a coma

In Copenhagen blowing Krone
Whipping in my Veneno out of Rome
Picking up baddies and touching their soma
My vision's faded I need to get sober

Can't stop relapsing when is this going to be over?
Life's black and white my mind's run out of toner
Fuck all you haters who say I'm a failure
I'm a mastiff you're a bitch you're a terrier

I'm rising up and I’m breaking down barriers
Breaking down weed in the back of my Harrier
Drunk driving once again need to stop drinking or
All the passersbys will point out my burial

<<< CHORUS >>>
I wish that I could see
Past this shot of whiskey
Everybody could see
I wasn't me except me

<<< VERSE 4 >>>
Some days I feel like everything I worked for
Ain't even really worth shit
Some days I feel like giving up but
I know that I cannot quit

If I quit God knows where I go
Ain't a pretty place man you already know
Life flipping around like an on and off switch
Some days I'm up but today I'm low

I don't know is it really worth it?
Everybody say take it day by day
Every night hear the same shit in AA
God grant me the serenity

To accept the things that I cannot change
And give me the courage to change what I can
Please someone say I'm not going insane
And this plea don't make me any less of a man

<<< CHORUS >>> x2
I wish that I could see
Past this shot of whiskey
Everybody could see
I wasn't me except me