Recovery

I don't wrap no fucking pack
And i don't kill no fucking people
All these people with some expectations
Never fucking lethal
I've been working hard for life
But my past involved illegal
I've been trying to understand
Trying to be better man'
Trying to move past the shit
That i'll never wash off my hands
There's never no promises in a life full of questions
Ive been feeling depressed and i get off my ass
But i'm fatigued and i'm tired
Like why that bitch try to drown me
Why i'm feeling so empty
Like why my friends fucking doubt me
Trying to love till it's gone
I put my heart in my songs
Fuck a face mask wearing fan that hates when i'm gone
Like can i mosh to this one?
I fucking promised myself that it is one then i'm gone

I fucking hated myself
You fucking taken my health
But i've recovered from that shit and now i'm taking the belt
I'm not here for the wealth
I'm taking care of myself
I'm busting in with a reason and you can't take what i've felt

Messaged on the daily like you're saving my life
When i listen to your music like i'm living my sight
My finest dreams come alive when you get down and you write
Grant you're amazing you are the light of my life
Tried to kill myself then i put on heart
You are just like me yeah a teen with a dream

Never had a second thought about where to start
I'm here for all the kids that are stuck in the dark
You aren't your depression man yeah i know the obsession
Try grabbing love by the hand then they go pull out a weapon
Life's here to serve you you do not serve it
Finding your purpose isn't through material earning

I was 16 yeah i felt empty as fuck
No one on the bus found friends in the dust
Hated every single person couldn't find who i trust
Complex trauma then i turned to the drugs
Acid fucked me up
Couldn't leave for months
Panic attacks and thoughts about fucking me
Woke up oxycodone still fresh
I'm surprised that my heart still beats in my chest
What am i here for god like what am i doing
I'm 19 in a few days now i'm feeling so useless
Like am i destined to work? a fucking job that i hate?
To work a fucking second job to put food on my plate?
I want my momma okay
Fuck drugs you're a slave
Addiction not a joke but you glorified bitch
Popping drugs for a fix, check a bitch then i rip
Your fucking lungs through your throat
Use your depression as a boast
I'm toasting to myself and my mother fucking circle
All my people that are closest i love with the most of me
Svi is the clique we in it for the most you see
My loved ones get my soul i love deeply
Deeper than the river runs to the sea
For y'all i won't let demons get at me
Imma work hard cause bitch it's my destiny
To save people is the reason why i'm battling bitch