Rebuilding Year (4 of Diamonds)

Sometimes I stay up all night
Sometimes I'm in bed before ten
Sometimes I'm not really sure
If it's ever gonna to end

I caught you at the carnival
Cotton candy in your hair
I swore we'd never speak again
So, like, where does that stand?

What are you doing here?
Watch my cool just disappear
You'll have to pardon my appearance
Because it's a rebuilding year

Rocky moved to Iowa
I lived with Gary 'til he married Nance
What's it even matter then?
I see no ring on your hand

I put mine the deposit box
Tried to forget I was happy once
Then I stopped getting haircuts
Then I stopped giving any fucks

What are you doing here?
Watch my cool just disappear
You'll have to pardon my appearance
Because it's a rebuilding year

And whats-his-name can go fuck himself
I froze his name in a wishing well
I'm trying to get better, dear
I'm not trying to disappear

Don't want to living in a nightmare
I'm just trying to get out of here
I'm just trying to make it through the year

What are you doing here?
Watch my cool just disappear
You'll have to pardon my appearance
Because it's a rebuilding year

Well it's a rebuilding year
And it's neither here nor there
I'm trying to climb back to zero
Because it's a rebuilding year

What are you doing here?
Watch my cool just disappear
You'll have to pardon my appearance
Because it's a rebuilding year