​really anxious !

[Verse 1]
Usually in my life i try to make sense of things
Met so many people i didn’t know what they’d bring
This year’s been really rough and all i have to show for
Is everything i broke and left behind, all these closed doors
I know that i don’t deserve you now
I know that all of our time’s run out
I know that i’m alone in a crowd
When i’m with you 'cause your head’s above the clouds

[Pre-Chorus]
I know that i’ve been in my head for way too long
Bottled feelings that i hide i don’t tell anyone
What i’m really feeling 'cause i can’t trust
That by tomorrow’s light they won’t up and run

[Chorus]
And i’m not used to spending so much time alone
But this is what i needed if i ever wanted growth
And you don’t fuck with me now but one day you’ll be sorry
That i spent so much time alone, sad and feeling lonely

[Bridge]
Oh no
Going through the motions now
Whoa, whoa
And i can’t seem to slow down
Why can’t
Everything just take a step back
'Cause i am really anxious and i need to relax

[Verse 2]
Only one’s that i’ve ever really opened up to
Left and made fun of me, who really am i to you?
So i go through life wishing i didn’t have this guard
And i wish that when i fell for you, i didn’t fall so hard

[Pre-Chorus]
I know that i’ve been in my head for way too long
Bottled feelings that i hide i don’t tell anyone
What i’m really feeling 'cause i can’t trust
That by tomorrow’s light they won’t up and run

[Chorus]
And i’m not used to spending so much time alone
But this is what i needed if i ever wanted growth
And you don’t fuck with me now but one day you’ll be sorry
That i spent so much time alone, sad and feeling lonely