Realize

[Verse 1: Yaro YT]
Uh, yeah, just realized I'm stuck in my mind
I realized why I stay up all night
And I realized why I feel this strife
It's because I feel like I'm not worth the fight, yeah
Guess I'm right
Told her how many times I just wanted to die
And I tell y'all it's 'bout four or five
But that's nothing compared to her, ice in her eyes
Lookin' forward at me
I felt it, I get it, Grandman, I'll leave
Can I get a hug or some' at least?
I stayed there, silent, I begged, and I plead
I thought Grandma would understand if I let it release
Or maybe, she'll see the pain in me
Or maybe she'll see my pains and needs
But nah, I guess I gotta dip and leave
The amount of times I just cried and weeped
The amount of times I just died in my sleep
The amount of times I have fallen too deep
The amount of times I just cried in my sheets, yeah
Got used to bein' alone
That's the reason why I rely on my own
Baby, I love you, and I hope that you know
I'ma stick around, 'cause with you, I wanna stay close, yeah

[Chorus: Targo]
Sometimes, I wish I was gone
Sometimes I wish I was gone
I don't mean to burden you, Father, but can I come home
Burden you, Father, but can I come ho-
With you I hate myself
'Cause I've been going through hell

[Verse 2: Targo]
I know I am broken
But how many times will the sinful just go free?
They say life ain't shit, but a token
And now I realize, the only thing that can hurt me, is me