Real Lapse

[Intro]
No matter how hard you try to run from this shit
It's like it's always—, always one step ahead of you, you know?
Every time I try to run—, run, it pulls me back even harder
Sometimes I just feel like I gotta give in just to feel alright again

[Verse 1]
Rap heavyweight, I'm talkin' sumo
But the shit done broke my heart, I'm talkin' takotsubo
No pseudo, heard the name, but I'm not the one, I know judo
You don't know if I got a gun, big stepper, big .40 on my hip flexor
My need for revenge is like a sick pleasure
Just on a pill and tryna numb the feeling
So I pop another pill and chop another melon
Fuck a hero, I got zero feelings in my cеrebellum
I live long еnough to see myself become the villain
Feel like 'Ye at the VMAs, this shit in my DNA
I got a lot of shit that I need to say, so why the fuck I always hold it in?
Walls closin' in, aw, shit, here we go again
I'm feelin' trapped like my origin, let me get a Hennessy or a gin

[Chorus]
Lyin' to myself, avoidin' real facts, I been on this track runnin' real laps
I know you feel that, I know you feel that
Anxiety kickin' in, I can't relax, I been on this track, runnin' real laps
I know you feel that, it hit my system, I know, I feel that

[Verse 2]
I know what these bitches do, success is really misconstrued
No class, your ass must have graduated from a different school
I get it really, shit is cool, I ain't even trippin'
I'm just slippin' through the cracks in the floor of my livin' room
Dancin' to a different tune, drivin' in a different lane
I was 'round for you, but you switched and now this shit just changed
Picture this, you couldn't even fit me in the picture frame
I'm sick of this, most your favorite idols is the biggest lames
Twenty years, never sold a ticket for the biggest stage
But I become the biggest villain if I ever get enraged
I used to pray for different days
The IRS came for me like my name was Nicolas Cage
That's the reason why my book is missin' pages
I guess we'll see in the end, although I love it, I'ma leave it again
I don't trust it, I'm like, "Fuck it, dawg, why even pretend?"
Bein' honest, I promise you never see me again, the end

[Chorus]
Lyin' to myself, avoidin' real facts, I been on this track runnin' real laps
I know you feel that, I know you feel that
Anxiety kickin' in, I can't relax, I been on this track, runnin' real laps
I know you feel that, it hit my system, I know, I feel that