Real Friends

[Intro]
Yo
Only a few real friends in this
Trust me
Red Signal
Let's go on a journey

[Verse]
Real friends
I'm always surrounded
They'll always keep me grounded
There's no two ways about it
They're my real friends
I see them as my equal
They're all genuine people
They've been spared of all evil
They're my real friends
They don't take all my money, they don't smoke on my cigs
But they'll ride with the kid
Yeah they're my real friends
I haven't got many
Used to think I don't have any
But honestly I've got plenty
They're my real friends
Wrote this on the Northern line from Colindale to Euston
Red signal at Camden but somehow I kept it moving
With music, on the way to start a brand new movement
Producing very important blueprints
I do this
I wrote this before I knew there was an instrumental
If this works on track, it's completely coincidental
People have tried to back-stab me lately, they must be mental
Had to take you out of the plan and quickly reschedule
Excuse me, I'm not here just tryna be successful
Essential, I put my heart on every instrumental
Respectful to everyone that saw I had potential
Veterans that gave me feedback, that was helpful
My lady helped me when nobody else could save me
Taking out my anger on her, I was going crazy
Haven't been myself, acting out of character lately
Really wish I could fix it cause if I lost her, that'd break me

[Hook]
I don't understand why I'm like this
I need some help because I'm going through a crisis

[Verse 2]
I'm sorry mum and dad, I borrowed money when you had nothing to spare
When I was going through a rough patch, you were always there
Made sure I had food to eat and I had new clothes I could wear
Even sent me £20 so I could go and trim my hair
When Shifty had his crash, I couldn't mentally prepare
So confused and in denial, couldn't even shed a tear
I was smoking so much weed and each night I was drinking beer
And I've quit the Valium, you could test me, I'm in the clear
Fighting demons
I've been dreaming of nicer feelings
Tried the writing treatment
But their eyes were weak so I delete them
Cause they're quite revealing
I feel weak when I try to speak, I'm just an extract to the life I'm leading
The nice demeanour is a front because inside I'm screaming
Being honest I'm only finding peace while I'm sleeping
I lost the old me recently and I'd like to meet him
If anybody sees him, tell me because I'm tired of grieving
I'm in debt with my girl and I wish it would go away
I swear I didn't even wanna come back home today
I wanna hit the studio man, that's the only place
But I'm working in a call centre, I've got that dough to make
So spare me of your life problems, I've made my own mistakes
Like how I've started working in a job I've really grown to hate
My life is basically one huge smoking break
I can't leave Nicky alone, I already know my fate
Already know my fate

[Hook][x2]
I don't understand why I'm like this
I need some help because I'm going through a crisis

[Verse 3]
When I die, I hope that you remember me like Bowie
I hope I'm worth more than just a love heart emoji
I hope tributes come in from all the MCs that know me
And I don't fade away, my legacy continues slowly
I don't get why some think they have the right to call me homie
Cause when you need a favour's the only time that you'd ever think to phone me
Only when you need a feature or a beat for a track
But I sent you something with a free verse, I never received nothing back
But this industry's full of crazy people
And it shocks me because I thought we were all created equal
I mind my tongue because words can hurt and what I say is lethal
When the Red Signal's done, you'll be awaiting the sequel

[Outro]
I'm back