Real

[Verse 1]
I can't seem to find a way, I’m trapped in my mind
I told my girl, "We gon' ride away." But laughed when I dived into a swirl. Getting high today, relaxing my eyes
Escape this world, to find a right away to rap when I've died
Because I can’t live
Getting dizzy while standing
Anxiety's prancing around my mind look fancy
Can not write when your hand-less
No one lends you a hand
Feels so splended to dance with a prescription of xanx
An addiction advanced replaced her in my heart
Seems like we were meant for each other but now we are splitting apart
We could vent to each other. Losing you was hard
I don't wanna restart
I'm heading to this party, I'm gonna supply the liquor
Hopefully the girls get naughty and rely on my to fix them
'cause I need to alleviate, hope that I won't miss her
Every time that I kissed her, shit, now I need some liquor
Sex drive under the influence, I am not permitted
To tell her how I feel, but my mind is twitching. Get in to the house, grab my bottle. I know it can save me from my A.D.H.D

[Verse 2]
I can't seem to find a way, I’m trapped in my mind
I told my girl, "We gon’ ride away." She laughed when I dived into a swirl, getting high today relaxing my eyes
When I close them, all I can see is the fact is you hiding
Now I hear all these sirens
In my head I am finding reasons why I am rhyming
Play a song then rewind
Do you know how long I've spent reading notes [?] might have been
Corrupting my environment
Do you think I am lying?
Why do you have to remind all those times we were fighting that you said you ain’t love me
Are you just trying to see me fail, huh?
I showed you every time that I prevailed slut
Every time you would cry, I grabbed the nail gun
Fixed your heart, then I tried to see why we failed hun
In my eyes, yeah I would spy on the Vicodin
Grab a handful and swallow, and then I am slumped
I don;t wanna open, I just wanna die so much. You know I'm corrupt
Hopefully my next girl accepts that I'm a pill addict
Still I won't have a lot of heart, Will ears still hear static?
I hope you can save me from this A.D.H.D

[Verse 3]
Got my back to the wall
I’m fighting rap as a whole
Problems are stacked up as tall just as Shaq when he balls
But I won't lack skills at all
I'll use my past as a toll so I can bash and assault anyone that isn't raw
This is payback, like I owe you back pay
I advise y'all to stay back 'fore I leave you in that grave
Me and the mic just go way back and the direction is that way
Put my music on playback, yes I'm making a pathway
Leaving you with a bad taste, side effect from a Vyvanse
I've been in a bad place where my mind has been silent
I'm meeting you half way. My rhymes have been vibrant
Leaving you the exact way you founded by a hydrant
And everything I say is real, every word I say is true
Everybody always talking, Imma spit this at you
So why the fuck you been tryna convinced my mind that its fake?
Everybody in this world I swear to god is a mistake
You don't know what it's like to ever live life to be poor
Every time that I had to fucking go up to the store with no money in my pockets, I just had to survive
This is one hundred percent real, get out of my life