RCM (RAIN CLOUD MENTALITY)

Who am I
Who am I
Hello hi
Chris Trevigne
Had a full name
Like a first name
Since the 5th grade
Like real early
Born and raised
In a good place
Sign reads Peaceful valley
Rains 12 times a year
So when it rains
It rains like hell see
I have a real good family
Fuck w immediate or extended
And you'll immediately regret it
I took this shit for granted
In my early teens
& honestly, I do not understand it
If I had this shit so perfect, why do I feel so damaged
Like school was easy, & girls were quick
I could jump real high, I stole my moms eyes
Look like my dad, who looks just like his dad
Look I charmed my way through undergrad
When I write the stats, and see em stacked, I feel bad that I ever feel bad breathe in count my blessings realize what's real and what isn't

But I always had this rain cloud mentality
Found out the more you think, the more you think inaccurately
I don't wanna be this way forever & I know it's getting better all the time, but sometimes
I just breakdown and cry, like

Never compare, but don't lose sight
Perspective hard to see at night
It's dark in my mind, tho I smile real wide
Cus now pictures on the gram paint out our lives
Confuse her likes for like she likes me
Feel like that's some shit we all do daily
Feel like steve robbed us of our livelihood
And we emptied out our pockets like it's all good

Do you want cheese with your wine
I do not want to be a server for the rest of my life
I don’t wanna be this way forever
Always had dreams of moving to SoCal
Like HOV, beach is better