Raincloud

[Verse 1]
My skin isn't soft like the people I love, it is rough, it is blemished like me
My hair does not fall like the waves in the ocean, it's messy and damaged, unclean
And, God, I try hard to fit in any place, put a smile on my face, but I can't change, and I'm tired
I am tired
And I try to be just like everyone else, no one will love you if you can't love yourself
Is that true?
Do you hate me too?

[Chorus]
When I'm floating like a rain cloud
And I can't hear what you say
Hold me near, let the world disappear, I'm so close, yet I'm so far away
Before the storm even started
I knew it would be this way
I fought for so long against everything wrong, but I'm the reason that I'm not okay

[Post-Chorus]
So feel all the shadows and darkness creep in
That's when I know it's about to begin
Never gave me a chance, no, I never could win, I will forever mourn
What could have been

[Verse 2]
My body's not made in the most perfect shape, I just feel clumsy and cold
And my heart is not strong, I just pull it along, dragging all of this weight gets so old
And, God, it's all wrong, I just don't have the strength to do this all again, even for one more day, I am tired
I'm just tired
I need to get better, I need to find help, but nobody loves me 'cause I hate myself
And it's true, what else is there to do?

[Chorus]
When I'm floating like a rain cloud
And I can't hear what you say
Hold me near, let the world disappear, I'm so close, yet I'm so far away
Before the storm even started
I knew it would be this way
I fought for so long against everything wrong, but I'm the reason that I'm not okay

[Post-Chorus]
So feel all the shadows and darkness creep in
That's when I know it's about to begin
Never gave me a chance, no, I never could win, I will forever mourn
What could have been