Radis Hate

I envy your apathy
And how you laugh at me when
I share my pain, such a shame, tragedy, sin
We both committed to be committed
Should be committed to an institution, outside this marriage
It's disparaging how
Don't wear a ring being
The type to think that new shoes
Will erase all the boo-boos
But this ain't Jellystone Yogi, you be all alone
In a world where standing up for yourself means
You're by yourself, so
Gimme a second as I swallow this lump and chase it with my pride
How it burns inside like hot passion
Flashin' your badge or your ass, I'm a prisoner
Hand cuffed tied, I cried, but my diamond tears never came
More of the same, only wet drama
Guess it's karma for the bitches of the past
I laughed, they crashed
Test dummies, they failed, they shall feel
A mist of redemption, attempting to find
Solace in my sorrow, tomorrow never mind
A debt that you owe to me
But now you holding me like a bad habit
Take it with no filter so
Now you gasping for air or space
Make up your mind
Can't have both at the same time
Unless you boldly going where
No man's gone before towards flow
How many notches your belt can hold
I guess I'm getting old with roots in the ground
Found what I thought could be
A plot of land to sow my seeds
But you see progeny as an anchor, so you set sail
High tail your emotions out of town, well

Now your silence speaks volumes
Echoing in all rooms, of my mind
Am I outta line? Fine
Let's rewind, decline
Any reference of the past, won't ever last
Without a lasting effort, better
Quit while it's ahead, it's dead, you said
So many times, fractured promises make me wonder why
We force this farce, we just broken hearts, who broke apart
Why even start
I guess we finished, not to be replenished
But I hope this thirst will be quenched
I'll pretend at the end, to wish you luck
But I don't give a fuck, really it's silly how you
Thinking that I be
Taking an L, just
Breaking the cell bars
And the scars that you left never set
I've been blessed with a thick skin, you just pinching
My nerves still got the nerve
To word my emotions with synonyms of
The feeble persuasions start pacing
Taking my time, you's a fine dime so, lemme flip a coin
Leave it to chance, not a chance over deltoids
I felt joy, you felt coy
I'm not your toy, stop playing
I'm not staying, we's fading