Quit While You’re Ahead

I often don't know what I'm feeling
Cause emotions don't seem so appealing
After years of trials
Inspired not by my own errors but
Deception, debasement and terror
Exes who cope just to kill
A few years ago I bought a handgun
Cause the CHAZ made me feel I should have one
I was there for two weeks
Working graveyard shift on the borders
Revolution is it’s own reward, or so i was told, I just moved forward
Then came years of dissociative addiction
Ketamine, nitrous, 3-MEO-PCP & 2-FDCK
I zoomed so far outside the planet
That forgеtting four suicides was painless
Becausе friends don't exist in the hole
So go ahead and spread that I'm dangerous
Go ahead and tell them I kidnap, I rape and I kill, pick any lie you want
Cause nothing that you ever say or do
Will ever be worse than relearning to
Use toilets and eat solid food

Nails in my sarcophagus
My blown-out esophagus
Frozen lungs and frostbitten fingers
Gabapentin, alcohol
LSD and adderall
Turns out I've got baggage after all
Countless nights with zero sleep
Everyone says I'm a creep
Hey tranny, can you relate to me? like a
Gunshot in a crowded mall
From the women's bathroom stall
There’s no use in trying after all

There's a perpetual disorder inside girls with field recorders
We don’t care and we don't know
We'll just plant ourselves and hope we grow up, but
How much longer are you willing to pretend
That you don’t wanna catch a load in the rear end from
Some girl who insists you call her "mommy"?

It’s obvious, at least to me
Mammals have a tendency
To generate sexual fantasy based on dynamics of the family
But the more that you treat it like a big taboo
The more people are going to
Submit, dominate, and crave abuse
Living for this thing that bothers you

Quit while you're ahead
This was always our new normal now
Quit while you're ahead