Quick To Forget

[Verse]
They say time is a great healer
But they lied cause I'm fried and my brain's beat up
And the pain in my heart didn't change either
So I sat in the dark and I prayed Isha
I used to smoke weed cause I thought it helped me
Only now I realise that it wasn't healthy
When our friends died we said that we won't forget them
Ten years on, they hardly ever get a mention
And to me it just feels so wrong
If it's fake why on Earth do we build those bonds?
I understand time still goes on
Maybe burying it deep's why you're still so strong
We forgot that he used to make his mum happy
Do we forget that his mum used to change his nappy?
I think that we forget that he was once a baby
Innocent and pure, no ifs, buts or maybes
And this is from the heart, I don't think it's fair
Why I'm still up here and you're under there
If it was me I would want someone to care
How I'm only visiting the graveside once a year
I had to start visiting you more often
You're my therapist, I talk to you bout all my problems
My other bredrin, I should really go and see him
First man to put me in the booth, rest in peace Sling
Leon used to make beats, he had the maddest hits
So advanced, his work rate was not average
They stabbed him over twenty-four times
I get sick to my stomach every time I imagine it
He was so young and so talented
No amount of money could pay for these damages
And I don't care if you've already this
I only put it into this song cause I'm a wordsmith
And these words don't scratch the surface
Why's the world like this? Why's life worthless?
They killed Wahab for nothing, tell me what's the purpose?
He was a good one my bro, he did not deserve this
Death around the corner, it feels near
How I got no fear but I'm still scared?
Time goes by and this feels weird
Sixteen years but I'm still here
Since Ricky died I've been clinging to my sanity
They said I'm the one to blame, people should be mad at me
Sunglasses on, no vanity
I've been tryna hide all this pain from my family apparently
My friend died right in front of my eyes
I was way too young, I didn't understand why
Tears that I should've cried but none in my eyes
Spent the next six years getting drunk and high
Life's so grey like a London sky
I was on beef like onions fried
Now I'm different, I wonder why
Probably cause I'm too busy with Hussain, writing London High