​purpose

[Verse 1]
I got what I want when I started
I'm making it regardless
Feeling suicidal, I'm not stopping til my target
They treat me like an investment, they treat me like a market
Yeah, they say to me they positive [?] that's a bargain
They want me to stop ordering lots of drugs
Tell me, when they talk about my music, they're like "fuck"
I have no purpose, I need a reason to wait
You're not really worth it, watch your head turn away
I don't think I get it, I wanna go just to fade
Stay just a minute, you'd let me drown anyway
Gotta shovе a lotta bullshit to the side
And you act like you don't know mе when you go and fucking hide
Tell me why
I wanna die
I been thinking, when am I gon' leave behind?

[Verse 2]
I'm tryna stop, can we stop?
Baby, I don't wanna die
Tell me lies, I ask you why, but you don't know how to reply
Yea you're right, yea you're right, I don't wanna make you mine
And I just wanna go back, but I know I can't rewind
You tell me things that I don't wanna believe in
Make me feel so bad and you did it for no reason
I guess I deserve it, I know I'm not worth it
It might be too late, but I'm still finding my purpose
[?], you hate me, I don't give a fuck
Yea, that's the reason I'm giving up
That's the reason that you suck
You talk too much, you talk so loud
You're getting old without my help
And you unleash what's not to tell
And if that's all, then you're in hell