Purple Rain

Had to question everything I stand for
Still purple rain and maintaining through the downpour
Cold night sleeping on the ground floor
I don't hate my father I just wish he was around more
Nanny came on a visit and she just broke down
She says she looks at me as if I was her own child
And only I can choose the road I'm gonna go down
So I know I'm on my own when it goes down
But sometimes I can't cope G I can't lie
Cah from young I been addicted to this fast life
Like I swear we were so high last night
And we didn't make it home 'til like half five
And this is real shit this ain't just the weed talking
Every time I get away I hear a fiend calling
I spend money I ain't got like a remortgage
I ain't slept for days feeling like I'm sleepwalking
When I'm just tryna dodge another sentence
Stan Tookie Williams I'm just looking for redemption
Hoodrat bitches holla looking for attention
Snakes hissing in the distance and I can sense 'em
Fake man wanna smile, say they're down to ride
On the low I know the same man wanna fuck my wife
In the hood there ain't nothing but some fucking sluts and liars
But I'll clutch and rise it you could get touched I'm riding
Looking for a Judas 44's, tre 8's, dottys and some Rugers
OT grow yard ciggies and some jewelers
Living for today like we ain't got no futures
And I don't really wanna change
Seen so much shit, some shit I don't even wanna say
'99 they said my mummy went on holiday
I found out that my mummy was in Holloway
But home is where the heart is so I'm loving where I live
And I know most man never struggled like I did
I was coming home hungry weren't nothing in the fridge
So I had to hit the road like something's gotta give
'05 me and Dizz hitting kitties outta Holborn
Chicks couldn't grasp why I wouldn't show emotion
Had to tell that bitch chill I live among some vultures
And a home ain't a home when your homes broken
And a home ain't a home when your homes broken
And then it gets harder Feltham, Chelmsford, Aylesbury, Parva
And I got some youts that need looking after
Two little girls that will never know their father
Cus daddy was a criminal, mummy couldn't cope
So daddy went jail, left mummy on her own
I was talking to the mandem they're like when you coming home?
Just keep rapping it could happen trust me you can blow
I gotta trap cah it's the only life I know
And my nanny's always telling me as if I don't know
And now I heard it's action what defines the man
Blowing macaroni got me thinking 'bout this life I've had
And I'm just thinking 'bout this life I live
As I'm getting older had to question would I die for this?
Man are riding life in bin
Shit the cases in the Old Bailey
Separated mice from men, from young I learnt don't talk
You know the game, you get caught that's your own fault
Did my first sentence as a baby boy
Born in the 90's, fucking with them 80's boys
Olders put me on road, back when it was all love
Road taught me everything, teacher never taught us
Road taught me everything, teacher never taught us
But don't front like roads something that you're built for
Cus you could die for something you wouldn't kill for
Mad years behind that steel door
Mad years on my strip mummy's still poor
Wait there's still more I'm trapping 24's G
Up and down in and out 'til I got sore feet
'04 to '06 I never saw sleep
Raw B had me counting bags at 14
'07 I left the crown court free
Back and forth on Feltham for like 4 weeks
'08 I was back behind that door G
Firearms charge I rid the whole 4 peak
But I rid that, the life you dickheads rap about I live that
Pebble down a big batch
G-star pack and told him flip that
I told him take 3 and bring 6 back
And T's been gone for a minute now I miss akh
And I miss C and I miss whites on my kids life everyday I risk mine
I'm just tryna live right so I gotta do wrong
Couldn't see you walking two steps with my shoes on
Ratchet always told me re-up before your foods gone
Ratchet always told me re-up before your foods gone