​public prayer

[Verse 1]
What's the afterlife I’m destined?
I been praying for a blessing
I been itching for a vision
From the God reside in heaven
'Cause really I'm fucking terrified
I been like this since I was five
The time just keeps on ticking
Who’s good and bad? And then we die
I've never gotten answers
Do I have to wait until the end?
Living in a fog and waiting anxiously for God [?]
The thing I'm really scared of
Do we pass away and fade to black?
Do our souls continue on
Or disappear and not come back?
What if there is afterlife but all my sins stack up against me?
And I'm not forgiven for the pain I caused and God resents me?
Guess that I just need a sign, an answer to my prayers
Really scared for when I die, I think my faith might need repairs
I try to do my best to show my love to ones I love
And to everyone I meet I show the love of God above
But I can't help but but sin and jeopardize my chance in heaven
I always ask forgiveness, could be over any second

[Verse 2]
I been praying
I just want a response to the questions I been asking
But it's just not working
Say that it is everlasting
But I haven't seen the proof
There's corruption in the youth
But it’s just a euphemism to express what is the truth
I don’t have faith like I used to
I mean I still pray
But I don't know you like I knew you
All these doubts that fill my head
Everyone can’t go
And how the hell can it contain the dead
After all these years?
And the people that have gone to heaven
Must be overcrowded
'Cause right now on earth it's over seven billion people
How can he accept them all?
I'm gonna fall
Straight from his grace
I hope he hears my call
And he can lift me when I’m weak
And strengthen up my fucking soul
'Cause man I feel so broken
And beaten bruised and I'm hopeless
Choking on my words
And reaching people through poems
If there's a day of judgment just hoping that I'll be chosen
If there's a day of judgment just hoping that I'll be chosen