Originally “Graduation Day” was supposed to be the last song on this tape. But then I produced this and I was like “Ok well I have this done but what am I supposed to do with this?” So I sat on the beat for a little while and then one day I was just having a really shitty day, and music always helps...
[Verse 1]
Yeah, I'm so psychotic, smoking chronic
I don't know if I'll ever get popping, just being honest
But here's the problem, to myself I made a promise
I know I say this often, but until it kills me I will not be stopping
It's the internal conflict, waging war within my mind
Run rap or be a scholar?
An answer I cannot find
Don't want to disappoint my mom, want her to feel joy inside
My dad too, but sorry to the fam I'm on the grind
But if I don't make it, I wonder what y'all would say
"Oh it's ok, we knew you wouldn't make it anyway"
And that's something I'd have to live with every single day
Putting my time into something that'll get buried in the grave
So yeah I'm a psycho, obsessed and at my limits
Fuck my Christmas song, I'm done with all the gimmicks
All I need is one chance to prove that I can kill it
Because I know I'm one of the best, I'm just waiting on yall to feel it
[Chorus]
So there's no halfway, I'm going all in
With God as my witness when I'm at the end
Of all my wits, when I lose my grip and plummet straight into the darkness
And become a psycho, don't care if y'all talking
I know I spit pyro don't care if I'm cocky
No key to success, I'm kicking the lock in
I'm taking my place, I'm out of options
[Verse 2]
My rhymes are like a courtroom, you're judging every sentence
I don't play that politic shit, won't take part in your elections
For the most part, I realized I'm not accepted, not respected, an outcast just based on my perception
If we're going off first impressions I would say that I sucked
But then I kept at it, dropped "Infamous" one
Wasn't the greatest either, but it showed I grew up
And this is the "Money Tape" so you know what's to come
But when I think about it, music is all that I know
I can do nothing else, travel no other roads
I stay true to myself, through the highs and the lows
I weave my way with the words until I'm so far gone
Further than any of you can ever imagine
Do it do it for money or love? The dollar bills or the passion?
Because recently, those lines have been blurred
But I'll be the greatest on earth until the dirt I return
[Chorus]
So there's no halfway, I'm going all in
With God as my witness when I'm at the end
Of all my wits, when I lose my grip and plummet straight into the darkness
And become a psycho, don't care if y'all talking
I know I spit pyro don't care if I'm cocky
No key to success, I'm kicking the lock in
I'm taking my place, I'm out of options
[Bridge]
I'm trying to build a legacy
You can dig up the past but that shit is dead to me
I'm climbing the ladder, no settling
Success's sweet call is beckoning, so
I'm trying to build a legacy
You can dig up the past but that shit is dead to me
I'm climbing the ladder, no settling
Success's sweet call is beckoning
[Verse 3]
So yeah I'm back at it, emotions erratic
Eventually, the negro will become enigmatic
And energized making these statements emphatic
Please, in the end, I'll be re-enacting my dreams
Keep that shit to myself so no one can be plotting on me
That's detrimental to my mission, you'll see
My mental state is headed for a collision, I need relief
But, until the day I collapse I need to make you believe, that
[Chorus]
There's no halfway, I'm going all in
With God as my witness when I'm at the end
Of all my wits, when I lose my grip and plummet straight into the darkness
And become a psycho, don't care if y'all talking
I know I spit pyro don't care if I'm cocky
No key to success, I'm kicking the lock in
I'm taking my place, I'm out of options