Proud

[Verse 1]
Tried to drink you away
Take my poison and pray
[?] too many strangers
I've tried eating too much
Then not eating enough
Doubled down every [?]

[Pre-Chorus 1]
If you could see me now
I don't think you would be proud of me
If you could see me now
I don't think you would be proud

[Chorus]
They say you're in heaven, heaven
But down here is like hell
They say it gets better, better
But there's nothing that helps
I wrapped up innocence
Can no longer feel a thing
Oh, if I could make you proud then I would
Whеn you're in heaven, hеaven
I can't call you for help

[Verse 2]
I've tried being too much
But it's never enough
There's no me without you
Tried every way make a piece of you stay
Won't make memories fade

[Chorus]
They say you're in heaven, heaven
But down here is like hell
They say it gets better, better
But there's nothing that helps
I wrapped up innocence
Can no longer feel a thing
Oh, if I could make you proud then I would
When you're in heaven, heaven
I can't call you for help

[Pre-Chorus 2]
If you could see me now
I hope you would be proud of me
Just let me take my time
Then I will bring out the best in me
(Hm)

[Chorus]
They say you're in heaven (heaven), heaven
But down here is like hell
They say it gets better (better), better (better)
But there's nothing that helps
I wrapped up innocence
Can no longer feel a thing
Oh, if I could make you proud then I would
When you're in heaven (heaven), heaven
I can't call you for help