I wrote this song in the midst of a low time. About loss, about shame, about grief. I wrote it to try and be kinder to myself. It asks questions about what honesty sounds like, what care feels like. I wrote it to counteract the ways that we are all taught to bury so much about us, so much that we fe...
[Verse 1]
There’s some things that I don’t wanna admit
So I try not to think about it
Said There’s a lot of ugly things in my heart
I just hope to the Lord I don’t slip
You feel me?
Said There's some things that I don’t wanna admit
So I try not to think about it
There’s a lot of ugly things in my heart
I just hope to the Lord I don’t slip
I wonder what it’s like to let it out
That part of me that I’m so afraid of
It holds on me and tosses me about
Doesn’t seem to be something I get away from
[Pre-Chorus]
Tell me, How do you name those well-kept secrets
That you never say out loud?
And why does the body see these demons
But keep me from calling out?
[Chorus]
I guess I’ll just say it’s a process
One day at a time
There’ve been weeks when I already lost it
But I came back every time
[Verse 2]
Said There’s a whole entire world that I’ve created in my mind
And it’s so much more real than the one I see outside
I’ve populated it with people who can see that I’m no good
And who know all the best places where I can go to hide
And I’m haunted by the ghost of my best friend
Who just left me to head to the next world
But I’d like to believe it’s the west end
With a room full of art and his best girl
And it’s positive that I can feel him
But I don’t know if I took advantage
Of the times he was right in the next room
‘Cause my pain was such I couldn’t stand it
[Pre-Chorus]
Tell me, How do you name those well-kept secrets
That you never say out loud?
And why does the body see these demons
But keep me from calling out?
[Chorus]
I guess I’ll just say it’s a process
One day at a time
There’ve been weeks when I already lost it
But I came back every time
[Bridge]
When you ask me what’s wrong
You might think I don’t hear you
But that’s not the case
I just might not respond
I don’t want to be near you
‘Cause I’m so ashamed
I put the TV on and just let it wash over
All of these many fears
And hope I wake up less weary
Tomorrow morning, tomorrow morning
And hope I wake up less weary
Tomorrow morning, tomorrow morning
Please God hope I wake up less weary
Tomorrow morning
[Chorus]
I guess I’ll just say it’s a process
Guess I’ll just say it’s a process
Guess I'll just say it's a process
One day at a time
There’ve been weeks when I already lost it
But I came back every time
[Interlude]
Hmm, hmm, hmm, hmm
Hmm, hmm, hmm, hmm
[Chorus]
I guess I’ll just say it’s a process
I guess I’ll just say it’s a process
Guess I'll just say it's a process
One day at a time
There’ve been weeks when I already lost it
I guess I’ll just say it’s a process
Guess I'll just say it's a process
One day at a time
[Outro]
There've been weeks when I already lost it
I guess I’ll just say it’s a process
I guess I'll just say it's a process
One day at a time
There've been weeks when I already lost it
I guess I’ll just say it’s a process
I guess I'll just say it's a process
One day at a time
There've been weeks when I already lost it
But I came back every time
Yes, I came back every time
PROCESS was written by Samora Pinderhughes.
PROCESS was produced by Jack DeBoe & Samora Pinderhughes.
Samora Pinderhughes released PROCESS on Wed Jul 29 2020.