Pretending Happy

[Verse 1]
I think I get it now
I think I figured it out
Won’t let it slip through my fingers
It’s got me on my toes, I’m the only one who knows
I loose my senses when it lingers

[Pre-Chorus]
And it hurts just a little bit too much
Sore to the touch
It’s a little bit much when

[Chorus]
I can’t find my happy
While I’m busy carrying heavy
Hearing every song that tells me
Just pose and smile and look alive
But I’m coming up empty
Pretending, pretending happy

[Verse 2]
Lost in a lonely place
Where my mind is a maze
Picking pixels like they know me well
And I watch the color change
Feel it go from my face
Realizing how much I can tell

[Pre-Chorus]
And it hurts just a little bit too much
Sore to the touch
It’s a little bit much when

[Chorus]
I can’t find my happy
While I’m busy carrying heavy
Hearing every song that tells me
Just pose and smile and look alive
But I’m coming up empty
Pretending, pretending happy

[Outro]
I think I get it now
I think I figured it out
(So scared of the feeling this time)
(Like it’s trapped in the back of my mind)
I think I get it now
I think I figured it out
But I’m coming up empty
Pretending, pretending happy