Positive

I’m not, I’m not really good and
I’m not socialising anymore
I’m good at finding excuses
I make in my mind to stay alone

And now my face hurts
I find myself smiling at strangers
Even if I don’t want to

I’m always tired
I get blue
You say it isn’t normal to always feel this way
But I ignore you

Procrastinating my whole life
Leaving space for a million doubts
It’s so busy in my head
It gets so loud

And you say
You should think more positive
This is one chance only
You have all that you need in this life
Sometimes clouds get stormy, yeah yeah

I cry in and I cry out
This room filled with tears that I can’t count
I keep it in and I let it all out
And I can touch the ceiling

My head goes around and round
Now it’s spinning
And it’s bringing me down
I’m drowning
I’m not breathing

I found myself reminiscing
Now I’m carrying this heavy heart
I feel like I’m falling apart

And you say
You should think more positive
This is one chance only
You have all that you need in this life
Sometimes clouds get stormy, yeah yeah