Portola (Blood Clot!)

[Intro]
You did good $lick

[Chorus]
Spaced out, always looking up
Sleepwalking, I don't wanna wake up, no
Too many pills, body won't budge (Won't budge)
Too many ounces, reason why I'm slumped
Rather stay numb to it, oblivious
I been up for days, delirious
Bury my emotions for periods
Deeper that I get, insidious
I'm feeling so, so broke
Damaging my lungs, chain smoke
Rather stay numb when provoked
Rather stay asleep than woke

[Verse]
Oh, oh, oh, here's another sad story
Tryna work on me like a fucking laboratory
Smoke, smoke, smoke, fucking up my respiratory
I burn it up like my soul a crematory
I can't feel my face, I can't feel my legs
I can't feel my arms, my body out of place
Is this the one that's gonna do me in?
Will there come a day I don't have to pretend?
Will there come a time my past don't haunt me?
Will there come a time I wanna feel something?
Ain't no happy endings where I'm from, no
The day you born, your grave's already dug, yeah
I got therapists for day-ays and they all talk the same
Road to hell is paved with the best intentions
Tryna dig up through my layers for what's already missing

[Chorus]
Spaced out, always looking up
Sleepwalking, I don't wanna wake up, no
Too many pills, body won't budge (Won't budge)
Too many ounces, reason why I'm slumped
Rather stay numb to it, oblivious
I been up for days, delirious
Bury my emotions for periods
Deeper that I get, insidious
I'm feeling so, so broke
Damaging my lungs, chain smoke
Rather stay numb when provoked
Rather stay asleep than woke