Poison

[Verse 1]
It started as a kid, I was born into sin
I couldn't fill my reckless heart, torn from within
In the storm and the wind, knew to Lord, how he lived
But I ran away from God, now I mourn what I did
'Cause these scars are still hurting my health, the weight is heavy
The load of many, I carry a burden that I done put on myself
But I'm scared I'm not the only one I'm hurting with this
My girl sees it in my eyes, I'm revertin' to bliss
My heart's cold and I'm sick, betrayin' her with a kiss
I'm makin' promises to mend things I never can fix
And I just act like it ain't happen, hope it cease to exist
I swear I wanna let it go but everything I do sticks
And every single day, think I'm numb-er than the last
Copin' mechanisms tend to help, they don't last
I hope this leaves a mental image of where I'm at
Somewhere between heaven and what happened in my past

[Chorus]
So I gotta take a second just to speak on this
I'm stuck in these habits that I can't seem to quit
I know there's a God, but I don't speak on him
Enough, life is full of poison, now it's seeping in, my blood

[Bridge]
So God change my heart, won't you come through?
I'm broken in my spirit, I don't want you
And I don't think that I could ever undo
All the things I did, so I'm callin' on the Son to
Save me (Oh, won't you save me, God?)

[Verse 2]
And my church taught me to conceal it
But maybe that's why I'm feelin'
Like every single thing I did, I had to go through alone
I couldn't tell 'em 'cause they'd tell me off
Pushin' me away, it's a miracle that I ran to God
But I can't say that it didn't hurt me
My ex-friend, best friend told them I'm a hypocrite
"You missin' the mission if you ain't worthy"
I swear that it ain't true, but that still cursed me
Now I'm facin' the repercussions of listenin' to religion
Scared to talk 'bout Jesus, persecuted by the Christians
Convinced me that you gotta be perfect to serve the mission
And I know that I'm a broken, wretched man without vision

[Chorus]
So I gotta take a second just to speak on this
I'm stuck in these habits that I can't seem to quit
I know there's a God, but I don't speak on him
Enough, life is full of poison, now it's seeping in, my blood