POISON BERRY

Journal log: Everyday’s a party
Laughing when life’s just really funny
Time moves on, flowing to the rhythm
And I’m here, maybe I’m the bum?

Smiley face! Haha nothing’s wrong!
(You’re not a toy!!)
Feeling odd, but lets sing a song
(IT’S ALL A PLOY!!)
Could it be something I said, that’s the reason I’m left on read?
(You better listen to your gut boy)

Or maybe in the end it’s just my own mind that I can’t trust
When we’ve always been ok, friends until the present day

If there is a bad guy, well then that―you’re not
Coz you’re such a great friend, you make me laugh a lot
There’s not a thing to change, we’ve moved past our old ways and now the days are
Very very, merry merry, sweet like a ripe berry
Very very, merry merry, sweet like a ripe berry

Nah that’s a poison berry
Listen dummy, that’s a poison berry
Get rid of that poison berry

Journal log: I get to be a part of something great, I feel it in my heart
Even though in the past my hard work meant nothing
I know a “you’re doing well” will ring

Hey! Everything’s alright! No need to be so uptight
My intuition’s gotta stop bothering me about a “might..”!
I know it’s nothing you said, there’s no way you could ever be in the wrong
(Is this a game? Homeboy’s gone insane)

Or maybe in the end it’s just my own mind that I can’t trust
When we’ve always been ok, friends until the present day

If there is a bad guy, well then that―you’re not
Coz you’re such a great friend, you make me laugh a lot
There’s not a thing to change, we’ve moved past our old ways and now the days are
Very very, merry merry, sweet like a ripe berry
Very very, merry merry, sweet like a ripe berry

Really?
Hey! Gotta be wary
Don’t ingest that poison berry
Hey! I know it’s scary
But ya gotta stay clear of that poison berry
Hey, that burden that you carry?
Maybe that’s a poison berry
Wait!! Listen to me!
Maybe you’re the poison berry
NO

“Thought you’d be there rooting for me”
“Tell me now, was that a lie?”
“Being around you, inside I was screaming”
“Maybe it’d be better to die”
“A certainty, toxicity, when your name is what I see”
“They’re all the problem never in a million years it could be me!!!”

Tell myself the same old song:
“There is no way I could ever be wrong”
Sing along to the same old song:
“There is no way I could ever be wrong”
Everyday it goes along
“There is no way I could ever be wrong”
Lying, denying the truth all along
“There is no way I could ever be wrong”

No no, you’re the bad guy, there’s no way you’re not
Even if you made me smile and laugh a lot
I’ve got nothing to change, and now that you’re gone..
Wait maybe I’m the one to blame

I can never take back all that I have done
But atleast I know now that I’ll never run
It’s alright, better days have begun

I know I was the bad guy, there’s no way I’m not
Even if I made you smile and laugh a lot
I know I’ll work to change, and hope that now your days without me there are
Very very, merry merry, sweet like a ripe berry
Very very, merry merry, sweet like a ripe berry

It’s so scary, in the end I was a poison berry!
Be wary! There’s an inner poison berry
Good golly, throw away that poison berry!