Pleasus

Did I ever learn to say when I've had enough
When I can barely hold it up, while I hold you down
And lift this crown and sew the seeds into the ground
And plant my feet
Or try to breath or try to drown, whichever first
It's all the same to me

When every bone is begging please
Don't let it slip away
My uncertain hands clutching close
The life I chose, I failed to notice
It crumble to dust right in front of my face
So I chalk it up to fate
And avoid the blame
I push it off
It set me off
I was wrong

Invited hate insidе my home
Trade my confidencе for status quo
My skeletons for curios
My body in pursuit of goals
I hate to say it, babe
I don't think I'm the same
My spirit ain't the same
Baby I am not the same

Have I lived my life right
Did I lay it all on the line
Or was I just not there for it
Losing out on every kiss
On nights I thought to stay inside
Or love the wrong one every time
Loving everyone but me

I traded all my time
Just to see you smile
And to hold your hand
Hoping that a breeze
Wouldn't shake me down
But still I stand
Letting go of all those heavy things
The part of me that lived
To see you breathe is suffocating
Reveling the bitter end

Have I lived my life right
Did I lay it all on the line
Or was I just not there for it
Losing out on every kiss
On nights I thought to stay inside
Or love the wrong one every time
Loving everyone but me

Nothing ever came for free
I gave everything
You always needed more
So you looked for it in me

So I set myself free
I only have room for me
It's only me now
Only me