​please love me, i’m trying my hardest

[Intro]
I ripped out the pages that reminded me of her
I know that I hate myself, don't need to see the words
I remember I had blamed myself for every time she hurt herself
It happened with the first, but with the second it was worse

[Verse]
The deeper cut, my feet are stuck and sink into the earth
I'll never be good enough, that's something I have learned
Crazy how the coldest pеrson left me with thesе burns
And then in my time to heal it's like there's people taking turns
Just to slow down my progress
I convinced myself that everybody is dishonest
I am no exception, broken hearts and broken promises
Follow me, traumatic memories are always haunting me
Don't pick up the blame to pour it onto me
Like I always do, I'm not mad at you
Because I been moving on and showing gratitude
I been smoking, tryna fix my shitty attitude
Numbing any feeling in my body through and through
And my memories are lacking any detail
So I know that it's working
I got a woman that I love and treats me better for certain
But the anticipation of finding what's under the surface
It fucking kills me, but more because she doesn't deserve it

[Chorus]
So love me (Love me)
Tell me that I'm pretty, know I'm needy
But I need it 'cause I feel so goddamn ugly (Ugly)
I hate the attention, then as soon as it is gone
I feel like not a single person cares about me (About me)
I fucking hate the way that I ruin everything
'Cause I can't control my anxiety
I'm selfish but I'd do anything that you need me to
Oh the irony

[Bridge]
Oh the irony, oh the irony
Oh the irony
I wanna live with you
But will you die with me?
I spend this time with you
And if it's wasted then
That's fine with me
I wanna cherish it
I wanted you to know
That you can cry to me
Oh the irony
I wanna live with you
But will you die with me? (Will you die with me?)
I spend this time with you
And if it's wasted then
That's fine with me (That's fine with me)
I wanna cherish it
I wanted you to know
That you can cry to me (You can cry to me)
And I hope you stay
For a little while
Take your time to leave (Take your time to leave)

[Chorus]
So love me (Love me)
Tell me that I'm pretty, know I'm needy
But I need it 'cause I feel so goddamn ugly (Ugly)
I hate the attention, then as soon as it is gone
I feel like not a single person cares about me (About me)
I fucking hate the way that I ruin everything
'Cause I can't control my anxiety
I'm selfish but I'd do anything that you need me to
Oh the irony