(Please) Don’t Fuck This Up

I wish I could be in love
God forbid I open up to someone
Everybody eats me up
Then they just spit me out when they're done

Greener on the other side
Guess it doesn't rain as much as you'd think
Maybe everything's a lie
I'm startin' to sink

Just take another pill they said
Talk it all out of your head
Would I be better off dead? No

If only it could be that easy
If only it could be that easy

Is it all some sick joke?
Came without warnin'
How was I supposed to know?

Things are goin' good, somеhow
Better start the countdown
Ruin it all right now

Doеs it make me the bad guy?
Tired of faking
Tired of the compromise

I'm about to self-destruct
Lookin' in the mirror beggin'
Please don't fuck this up

Ego is armor-clad
Forget to apologize when I'm wrong
Always focus on the bad
Never on a good thing until it's gone

Just take another pill they said
Talk it all out of your head
Would I be better off dead? No

If only it could be that easy
If only it could be that easy

Is it all some sick joke?
Came without warnin'
How was I supposed to know?

Things are goin' good, somehow
Better start the countdown
Ruin it all right now

Does it make me the bad guy?
Tired of faking
Tired of the compromise

I'm about to self-destruct
Lookin' in the mirror beggin'
Please don't fuck this up

If I could just go backwards
And give myself every answer
And warn me of pretty evil
Specifically in the people of
Hollywood, California
Who glamorize all the trauma
But it won't end like the movies
And there is just no undoing

It's a necessary evil
To forgive all of the people
Who locked you up in detention
With the greatest of intentions
Getting comfortable with vulnerable
It may be just impossible
I tried it and it fucked me up
Bad

Is it all some sick joke?
Came without warnin'
How was I supposed to know?

Things are goin' good, somehow
Better start the countdown
Ruin it all right now

Does it make me the bad guy?
Tired of faking
Tired of the compromise

I'm about to self-destruct
Lookin' in the mirror beggin'
Please don't fuck this up