Play Me When You’re Sad

[Verse 1: Hollyn]
I long for connection
Been wanting it badly
Constant redirection
Makes friends hard to keep
But it’s a holy request
So I always say, “yes”

Afraid to over explain
Why my life keeps on changing
My melodies are my language
I’m not sure how to tell you
I need help when I need it

If you’ve been in my life at
At any point
I’m glad you were around
I’m glad you were around

[Chorus: Hollyn]
Are you proud of me?
I’ve been wondering
If you’ve kept an eye on me
Are you proud of me?
Can you tell that I’ve been trying?

[Verse 2: Hollyn]
My healing’s been cutting
As sharp as a knife
Then sweetness like honey
Cleanses me inside
I feel like a new
New woman

I just wish that you could
Understand my pain
My sorrow in life
I know my name
Means nothing to me in the lights
I’ve been thinking
“Maybe I should give it all up.”

[Chorus: Hollyn]
Are you proud of me?
I’ve been wondering
If you’ve kept an eye on me
Are you proud of me?
Can’t you tell I’ve been trying?

[Verse 3: Hollyn]
I’d do it all again
I wouldn't change a thing
I’d lay it all down
I give You my own name
I’d do it all again
I wouldn’t change a thing
Sacrificing this
Has been the greatest change
In me

I needed to know what it’d feel like
To lose a grip on my own life
Everything falls by the way side

I think I’m starting to understand
Why nothing I had went to plan
I think I’m starting to wrap my head around it
I think that You would understand

I would’ve burned it all down
God, I don’t think I’d have made it out
Even with my doubts

[Chorus: Hollyn]
Oh im so proud of me
I gave up everything
I bet it all on Peace
I forged my own identity
God, I know You’re proud of me

[Outro: Hollyn]
I realize You’re my dream
I give You everything
Doesn’t matter what people see
Even if it’s just for me and You
I know You’re proud of me
I feel it when I sing
I see You in my dreams
God, I know You’re proud of me