Plague of Sadness

[Verse 1: Chuckklez]
It's like a constant circle every day around my life
No matter what I try to fix it seems that things won't be alright
I got a million fucking problems which has labelled me as a mental case
Since the day I touched the booze it let me fall in a headless grave
Landing me in a certain world where everything is full of sorrow
And the pain that stands before me turns my psyche into hollow
Wish it'd never go away so I can get through another week without the bullshit riding beside in life and as I'm going wеak
Fucking fed up with these issuеs I keep remembering from the past
One of my homies passed away, I knew I was heading towards a relapse
Thinking about some ways so I could finally end it all
And hopefully find a fucking purpose that will lift me from this fog
But in order to complete my wish I need to sign the dotted line
So that the devil can take my soul and later on underneath the fire
You can tell that death is near when the tears come down the sky
As I start to fucking choose rather if I wanna die

[Chorus: Chuckklez]
I wish there was something in this world that would help me try to ease my pain
Looking in the mirror at my reflection, I can't even stand the sight of me
Overwhelmed with so much stress and the hatred starts to take its toll
And every fucking inch of what is left of my soul
'Til I finally realized I have lost control

[Verse 2: Chuckklez]
When I look into the mirror just to see my own reflection
The reaper's looking right behind me with a sinister expression
I'm ready to take some action as I'm loading up the fucking Glock
Press it against my temple as I'm staring towards the clock
Overwhelmed from paranoia, I couldn't bear the stress
As my knees are starting to buckle and my face was soaked in sweat
But not only was I scared, it was just the thought of the aftermath
And what the chances are would be if I chose to walk this path
Since the day I chose this music shit I sacrificed so many things
That I thought was for the greater good, but left me with broken wings
Losing friends from left and right
My family wished I was dead
For not having the perfect son they were wishing they had
Heart broken with depression, fucking fed up with this world
How could something be so beautiful, could be awfully fucking cruel?
So this is my final chapter before I pull this god damn trigger
What leads me towards the afterlife can hopefully be much better

[Chorus: Chuckklez]
I wish there was something in this world that would help me try to ease my pain
Looking in the mirror at my reflection, I can't even stand the sight of me
Overwhelmed with so much stress and the hatred starts to take its toll
And every fucking inch of what is left of my soul
'Til I finally realized I have lost control