Pit Rat

When I had climbed those steps, I slaughtered all resistance
A hole in my chest, so it seems you can’t miss
I was bathed in flames from the head to the toe
-Conquered the gods
And look, everybody noticed
Not a mortal man—no pain, no shame
-A cutthroat bitch with no cross to bear
Who would have thought, huh?
I don’t know, I don’t think about that
I’m too busy cleaning up the nonsense,
Nonsense, nonsense!
Feral instinct soon devoured logical thinking
Who’s to blame?
It’s always someone else’s fault
That’s enough said
I’ve spent too much time complying
That’s not purpose,
And hoping does not make a wish come true

O’ I’d broke my back trying to carry gravity
Its whip, it cracked and hissed,
So my conscience went on screaming,
“We all share the same blood
We are one
Lift us up”

Calm, calm, calm was the beast inside that suit,
But the fangs still sank deep
-Ensuring irreversible
A taste of the grim, growing state that I live to create
I generated a new coyote fate
Was scraped on a floor of greed until I bled straight hate
Yo, I mastered being fake
You irritate me with that taunting, taunting, taunting!
Hush your mouth
One day you’ll feel how I felt;
Nothing—void of pain
It’s almost like a talent
I’d been worthless
I’d been thinking it was time for change
Gave me purpose
Gave it up ‘cause hoping never has its way

I broke my back trying to carry gravity
Its whip, it cracked and hissed,
So my conscience went on screaming,
“We all share the same blood
We are one
Lift us up”

Sometimes I scream for nothing
Forgive me for that sin
I couldn’t cry that day
I can’t help it
Gods don’t have a weakness
Here’s my place—right atop the great stone
Now I don’t look people in the eyes,
For deep down,
I know all I’ll see is me—is me

O’ I’d put my faith into a crown,
And I blamed you for that wanting
We don’t leave things well enough alone
We don’t seem to see things clearly
And I told myself that it was okay to run and hide from evil,
But who was I to judge the hearts of men?
I’m just as bad as them!
This is shame,
And that’s no clever trick
‘Cause everybody wants to dance with a champion
-The first of all rats to claim that pit!
I’d brought the gods down!
And in their craters, I grew grand
I became pure

Mi foolin mi—nuh!
An mi chuck drough de jest
A murdera? Nuh!
Mi just pro of mi de bess
Mi see yuh back to de corna—back down de corridor
Mi kill just one, just one—no more
Bwoy! Not a tief, an mi pity fi yuh soul
Wat can mi feel?
O’ mi nuh gat eni emotion!
Mi nuh see dat shine
Just see de dark, murky depds of de ocean
Mi nuh share nuh blood wid yuh—mi nuh share
Mi nuh care bout de dark, murky depds of de ocean
Mi nuh share nuh blood wid yuh—mi nuh share

O’ mi broke fi mi bak try to carry—carry gravity
Fi yuh whip, it crack an de hiss,
So fi mi conscience went pon de screamin
“Wi all share de siem blood
Lift wi up
Lift wi up”

Mi nuh care bout de dark, murky depds of de ocean
Lift wi up
Lift wi up