Pictures On My Wall

Your daddy ain't perfect but he tryna be
Sometimes I can't find my heart, it's playing hide & seek
The outside I might be smiling but inside I weep
And when I find my heart it's always locked ca I can't find the key
And am I really gunna blow am just taking my time
Your diamonds are the only way that money is making you shine
Look I got pain on my left and I got pain on my right
Am burning on this strain to try stop the burning inside
Anything I get attached to never last long in my life
You can hear the pain in my voice and see it in my eyes
I spent all of my time just failing am a make it right
Until the day I succeed it will keep me awake in thе night
If I could speak to my children that I lost then I would tеll em
To spend a minute with you I'll give up like every second
Either let the pain break you or you use it as your weapon
Did you know that every second of your life it is precious
Can I really make this better yeah of course I can
Sometimes i wish I was foreign and they deport me back
Sometimes I wish the world would eat me up and spit me back
And I ain't sitting crying about my pain cause it made me a man
I ain't sitting crying about the rain cause it made me a plan
And to make all this shit better I been breaking my back
Even when it wasn't me I was still taking the wrap
And if I leave the trust is gone you ain't taking me back
I been feeling like my life has got no plan
Am tryna get this off my tongue but I just don't know if I can
Look I was feeling suicidal and I felt like I should hang
And nobody could change mind about those feelings that I had
Or maybe am just like my mother, maybe am just like my dad
Maybe am the fucking image of the dad I never had
Or maybe am the shitter version of the person in my past
Look all I know is life is precious and what's precious never last
Am tryna burn all of my pain away and watch it turn to ash
But everytime I light the flame it rains and the fire don't last
Look everytime I try and change I always fall in to the traps
Of the enemy but its good because yeshauas got my back
Listen I ain't really trying to be caught up in this trash
And when I sit and think about the past I wanna take it back
But I can't beat myself up about it all and that's a fact
And I ain't stressing about things that I can't change In a flash
Look I was living on the roads and that made me a man
It made me value myself more so I made me a plan
Look I had people tryna violate just making me mad
Before I punch you in the face til I was breaking my hand
Look I ain't never had no time for holidays in the sand
G I was up and down the block just tryna make me a grand
And everybody's all around you when your breaking your bank
But when your broke they running like you got a snake in your hand
I'm feeling like am sailing on a boat tryna find land
So many people getting stabbed because they tryed to be gang
Look I got sutten cooking trus me sutten fried in the pan
I've just gotta abide in the Lord and abide in the plan