Phony

Brought a rookie home couldn't get it going
So we just gave up
Gave myself away to another, no
I can't get enough
Am i sick or phony?
I don't really know me
You can call my bluff
Am I twisted, lonely?
Think the world doth owe me
So I hurt the ones, yeah

The ones that mean the most to me
The ones that feed the family
'Cause I've never had a healthy thing
I've always been a solo bitch

(chemical imbalance or just some deeper shit?)

And you ride ride 'til the end of days
And you try even when you are not okay
And you mean everything you do
And you mean everything you say
And you want everything to prove that you are not
The one to blame
That we are cool but are we cool?

(repentance on my lips that's just the way it is)

Awaken in distress help like S.O.S
Feel it drain my soul
Could it be in my blood is this ancestral mud
An extreme ebb and flow?
I dig my hands in earth I quench my body's thirst
Add fire to the core
Don't give into temptation mind is always racing
And i'm searching for

Understand a little hope
A plan I can manage so I can manage
My highs and lows

(I didn't ask for this I just want you to know)

And you ride 'til the end of days
And you try even when you are not okay
And you mean everything you do
And you mean everything you say
And you want everything to prove that you are not
The one to blame
That we are cool but are we cool?
And you ride 'til the end of days
And you try even when you are not okay

Brought a rookie home couldn't get it goin
So we just gave up
Gave myself away to another, no
I can't get enough
Am i sick or phony?
I don't really know me/
You can call my bluff
Am I twisted, lonely?
I just think I'm hungry
For some proper love