Philosopher’s stone

This man inside my head
Gets me twisted in my head
The world screams Inside my head
I can not get out of bed

My own body feels like a mistake
An obstacle I can’t protect
I just feel shame
And protest

And sincerely
I am a mess

To be honest
I feel like shit

The need
To hide myself away

I fear i might
Have been locked up
Inside a place
That’s not my cup

What will i give
To change it here
A new angle
Or perspective

This woman inside my heart
Screams and shout
To lock the door
In fear and shame
She just stand still
Blocks me away from all the feels

But this morning something has changed
A new idea an intuition
A reminder of creation

I’ll grab this stone and make it mine
Alchemize and visualise

Something to share
Inside, a flame
Ready to flare

Dont want any
Regrets
On my
Deathbed
The here and now
Should not be fled

I’ll grab this stone
And make it mine
Alchemize and visualise