Perceive

[NAK]
I would mourn too if that rare soul
Thinks self-slaughter’s that
Best solution
I wonder often why
Great beauty need great pain
For that “execution”

Life’s paradoxes
Mock the optics
Betray the way things arranged
Like “heads bowed eyes closed:”
The same way we pray
The same way we hang

My pain range is no "one-to-ten"
If I think to guess, I’m like one-thou
I lose sight of myself often
As night falls:
Sundowning

This star falls: no wishes honored
Armed guard as I kiss the martyr
In a dark gardеn, better pray and watch
And if you think you know me
Start looking hardеr

[Kept on Hold]
It’s hard for me to be
What you perceive
Oh if you had eyes to see
No, it’s not that simple

[NAK]
I miss the old me as much as you
But I’m not sorry
I miss the old me as much as you though
But I’m that zombie
I miss the old me as much as you though
But I’m not sorry
I miss the old me as much as you though
But I’m that zombie

Let's go

[Kept on Hold]
Am I not allowed to change?

[NAK]
Who am I to you?
At what point did I shine brightly through?
My fire inside turned icy blue
And all I want to do is stay alive to you
So I lie to you

As I seize the mic ‘cause I need your liking
‘cause I don’t like me
And all these followers
Are right beside me
But Christ reminds me:
It takes one “trial”
And they’ll all deny me

I ain’t tolerating
All your pity, really
I can see through that iris
I don’t think you really
Ever cared about me
All you want is what I give

Where were you when all sleep eludes me?
Hurt and bruise me
While I make you music
And I could never change
Who you want me to be
‘cause I didn’t ever want you to leave
But now I’m free

[Kept on Hold]
(Where were you)
Where were you when I’m needing sleep?
(When I need sleep
Where were you)
Where were you when I’m needing peace?
(When I need peace)

It’s hard for me to be
What you perceive
Oh if you had eyes to see
No, it’s not that simple

[NAK]
I miss the old me as much as you though
But I’m not sorry
I miss the old me as much as you though
But I’m that zombie
I miss the old me as much as you
I miss the old me as much as you
I miss the old me as much as you
But I'm not sorry

[Kept on Hold]
Am I not allowed to change?
Just here to keep you safe
When your thoughts, need rearranged?
Am I not allowed that grace?

It’s hard for me to be
What you perceive
Oh if you had eyes to see
No, it’s not that simple

It’s hard for me to be
What you perceive
Oh if you had eyes to see:
Know it’s not that simple