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I’m going back before the CDJS
Back when we were pioneering TDKS
My mums the living room , she  was watching TD Jakes
Raising up her spirit , cause she’d givin everything she slaved for and we adored her for food the stored in freezer trays
Living off a limit, she had visions that wed see a change working 3 jobs and doing uni, just to see us wake, everyday grinding just cop a pair skates but never seen a silver lining in the city where the ceilings grey
I’ve seen her pain
And her depressions getting worse
I saw the woman’s work and wondered when they’d see this woman’s worth, had her 3rd at 27 ,separated from her first
Tryna get saved but savings always taken at the church
She deposited her faith in all my brothers on the basis, faith is the only way we’d make it
In the haeinus and she braved when she told us palaces fantasy, now I’m a part in my apartment with a cackle as I laugh at dreams
Still I graduated in tryna make it to the top
But in 2:2s I knew the truth for what is what was
Everything I’m wanting gonna come in at cost
Now I think I should have the saved the money wasted at my lunch I’ve been through enough
My mum prolly feeling she was talentless , not knowing that her drive and sacrifice is where your talent is
I gotta keep going just so I can see her plane
Back to SL so that she can see her rays

I want to see you smile again
On the inside
And all the pain that you hide within, Let shit fly
I want you to be proud of me
Hail me up one time
I want you to be proud of me
Hail me up one time

The earth is Heaven for a heathen
Or maybe we’re just dancing with the demons
I think I need something to believe in
On some other shit
So far the past wasn’t the comfiest
The futures brighter than me focusing on gully shit

Met my bros at 24 and by 25
Their mum was diagnosed cancer and she wouldn’t survive
And I’m beside myself, look at her last breath ejecting
Astral projections, tryna hide my tears so I’m sweating

Cause my other bro and I blood relation ain’t best
I got scars from the night the metal shard hit my flesh and now I’m thinking to my self how far I’ve gotta step
I’m older bro to some brothers that I barely even met
It’s mad how life will really put you through these challenges
You flip a penny and it chooses one side it never balances
I recognized life splits spirits like a Horcrux
We get through any way cause it’s all love

Hail em up
One time, One time aye
Two times, Two times aye
Three times, Three times aye
X2

(interlude)